now where do i start? i really cant imagine the things that are happening to me right now.. its so heart breaking.. i just cant explain in words what im feelin right now.. its .. just not.. i just feel like i shouldnt .. i mean.. it shouldnt be happening to me.. but life is unexpected and sometimes things just happen.. though things usually happen for a reason. im not sure if the incidents occuring to me now signalling me to look at my life and analyse if i still should be living this sorta life.. im really at a juncture.. should i or should i not.. i dont wanna experience these stuffs again.. ever again.. but i cant just dismiss it like that.. i know that i have to make a decision and decision comes with consequences.. and i will have to decide it sooner or later.. its just.. please... why do i have to decide.. its so unfair.. what you did to me.. i have to bear.. what you do.. i have to live with it..

- so where do i go from here??