Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.And that's marriage - with the right person.You're serious about settling down some time soon.Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

HUHHHHH???

Sure anot?? gee...Yeah the thought has came across my mind before but not really seriously planning or what.. still dreaming about it la... my baby's not ready yet.. we still have a long way to g... Dating is fun what??

**Fizah let out a heavy breath..**

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Let's start off with what happened yesterday.

At work, Aisah asked me to help her find a present for Razali's farewell party as a token of appreciation for his service in NUS for many many years long. i thought of a decent watch but aisah didnt really like the idea. she said that Razali wont appreciate it. She said that he's the "selenge" type. i was very upset when she said that. i mean who is she to say people "selenge" or not right? aisah thought of a buying a photo frame and inserting old photos of the him and the staffs at LAC. so i went to causeway point with my mom in search of a nice photo frame.. i saw this really chic "expensive"-looking solid wood photo frame at Precious Thoughts and without thinking further.. i bought it. Then me and mom went to BK and had our dinner. It was fun. The dinner i mean.. it's been long since me and mom spent time together. OK.. so then we went back home and when i wanted to put the photo in the frame.. i realised that ive bought the wrong size.. the frame is for 5R photo but my photo is size 3R. so what i did was to put two 3R photo together. it looked pretty ok i guess. Well, at least it covered my blunder.. Luckily.. *Phew*

Wokey, so today, i woke up late.. and had to take my own transport.. Reached @ 8.30am so had no time for breakfast. Went into office only to be told that another staff "see doctor". Damn it!! That means its my turn to go cover his duty in the wash area to "korek Sai".. whatever!! at 11.30am, off we went to Sembawang, LAC for the farewell party. I saw Razali.. sheeshz.. now i know why aisah said that he's a selenge.. he really is.. i mean its not the selenge- selenge type.. its more of like he's very in his own world. like he's in a daze. he doesnt respond to people around him. its like his eyes's looking into space.. the staffs there said that he was disturbed by spirits..and he would just scream at any time.. at the top of his voice saying that he doesnt want to be disturbed anymore.. good gracious.. i wonder who he's talking to.. Aisah told me that that's the reason why he was retrenched.. poor guy.. he looked very decent.. *sigh*

oh no... im late for tuition again.. will update again if ive time today... bye..

I am so tired..

I am so tired..

I am so tired..

Horrayyy!!! Huwowwwwww!!!!!!! My date yesterday with alfian was sooooo good.. i just couldnt start describing how much we've bonded.. and how much we've enjoyed ourselves so thoroughly.. Yayy!! At long last, i experienced the date i've always been longing for so long. Thanks dear for making me so happy yesterday though i had to wait for you for 2 hours long. BUT it all worth it.. I was so damnnnnn tired afters.. The sleep following it was so peaceful, calm and serene.. You can practically see me smile whilst sleeping.

Therefore today, i woke up feeling refreshed, cant wait to start the day. Oh what sweet dreams i had yesterday.. the hot sun, the soft sand, the sparkling clear blue sea, the corals, the calming blue sky, the shades, the straw hat, and of course my hot man sipping ice water.. huwowwwwwwwwwww....

Anyway, a call @ 6.30am stopped all my fantasy. My boss called and said that one of the staffs called in sick. so two down and now one down.. what else can be so boring on a monday morning. so i went out of my house feeling cheery bubbly and very enthusiastic to start the day. But when i reached Kranji MRT, another 2 of the staffs reported MC again. ok! there goes my mood , my fantasy, my everything. coz why? coz that means that i had to 'pa kau liao'everything. right from the packing, to the washing bay, to the mice room, to the rat room. And if that's not enough, the taiwan visitors had to come today and of course i had to leave my work and entertain them.. luckily there was aisah to help bring them around. Sheeshz...

Errrrrr.... i forgot to check the time.. im running late for my tuition.. sheeshz.....

So here i am at my office on a saturday morning.. *sigh*

My duties are done but i cant go back yet coz i've to wait for the electrician to finish doing his wiring and return me the switch room key. That explained why i have the time to update on my blog.

My weekend gonna be a fast one... lets see.. tomorrow i'll have to come to work *again* and then to tuition *again* and then go out with darling. i hope we'll have a fun time together. i need to de-stress myself. hmm... when was the last time i watch a movie?? errr... nah i cant remember.. months ago maybe.. sheeshz..

Wokey.. here comes Thiru the electrician.

Im off to tuition now.. sheeshz..

- the bus ride's the only thing why i enjoyed going to work.. sheeshz..

Well... what can i say.

This whole week has been very frantic for me. An emotional, really take alot from me.. Im so deadbeat from everything that has happened throughout this week.

Firstly, i didnt get the much awaited promotion. Common' man.. i deserved it. i worked my ass off.. Bosses said it'll have to wait till december. Oh what ever..

Secondly, apart from my work duties.. im now in charge of two temasek poly students on attachment for a period of 3 months. Gosh, if my work load is not suffocating me already, you've to add on to my work load. Sobz. Next week will be hell coz Swee Huat's on leave for a week and JW is still on leave whole lot of next week. Only ME.. ive got no leave.. or better well rephrase it.. i cant take leave. how unfair. Sheeshz..

Im really left with no energy at all to do tuitions. have been cancelling all my tuitions for this week. And tomorrow's the Doa Selamat for my dad at my home.. i'll have to help out. But that will have to be after im off to work then to tuition then come home. There goes my much awaited date with my love. Sheeshzz...

Everytime when i post anything on this bloggie.. it took me quite some time to ponder on the stuffs that i went through for the day and what i wanted to do for the day but have no time.. or rather no opportunities to do so. Im tired.. as a whole.. I barely have any time for myself. I need a long break. Away from this fast-paced country.. away from any demands.. i just want to do something without thinking of whether i would be wasting my time and then started doing my first task on my to-do list.. I feel like im a robot. i have been programmed to do this and that against my will. Yeah.. im stressed. Sheeeeeeeeeeshz..

Let's start off with what i did today,

• Wake up.
• Went to work.
• Come home.
• Eat dinner.
• Went for tuition at 6pm.
• Went for another tuition at 8pm.
• Reached home, sit infront of pc blogging.

What i really wanted to do today,

• Say good morning to my dad.
• Spend time with family, talk about anything.. just family bonding after work.
• Have a slow quiet dinner with family.
• Relax and watch TV.
• Catch up with sister's revision for O level.
• Catch up with my mom and bro.
• Pampering myself with the body lotion i bought 3 or 4 months ago which is still left untouched.
• Say good night to my fam, kiss my dad and mom.

I thought i needed some quality time with my family which i think i havent been having. But everytime when i wanted to do something like that..i realise that my time are preoccupied with work and tuitions. I wanted to have a balanced lifestyle but i just cant dismiss the tuitions and all.. i needed the cash. Yes! Its true that money is'nt everything. But if you look at it in another way, money really makes the world go round. Though money can never be enough for anyone, having more money to spend and save can really save a person in times of difficulties.

I miss my fam'. Really.

Unluck-iest Day of the Year

Early morning i woke up.. My flu has worsen.. I feel so weak.. I am sick.

At work, my toenail was broken into two with the broken nail still loosely pasted on the flesh. It made me so painful to just walk, let alone wearing lab boots. Gosh it hurts so much. I was loading a trolley with beddings and pellet to be pushed into the animal room. I wasnt aware that the one of the trolley's wheels was very loose. I loaded it full, probably 50kg of bags or more. While i was pushing it into the mice room, the loose wheel making it harder to control so.. you guessed it.. the wheel stopper got hooked on to my toes, dragging me with it for a few seconds. There goes my tiny toe. Excruciating Pain!

Then while i was replacing the old rat breeders in the isolators.. one of the rats, a male rat, weighing probably 5kg bit through the biohazard plastic bag which it was in and got freed. It took me a good 2++ hours to catch it in the isolator. Not an easy job at all considering the limited length of the gloves.. I caught it in the end and when i passed it to my assistant, he was bitten by that Little Mischevious Male Rat. It was a very deep cut. The rat bit through the thick plastic gloves. EWW... painful. Blood was oozing out from my assistant's palm non stop. I treated his wound, got it all wrapped up. Man, i feel so guilty. "So sorry Tor Lee. wo bu shi ku yi de!! Mee Lubok for you tomorrow ok?" huehue..

Just because of a stupid rat and a stupid trolley.. im so behind time. To make things worse, my boss was on course so i have to cover her duties as well. Shucks man. So many responsibilities.. so little salary. I'd better get a promotion soon or else im outta CARE, running over to BIOPOLIS. huehue.. my boss would cut my head off if she sees this entry.

Oh well, nobody's perfect!

Today was ok for me. My sore throat is getting better though my blocked nose still wont go away. CARE is doing well today, did supply of rats and mice and nothing went wrong. No complaints what so ever. Everything went smoothly till the time i knocked off from work. I saw this little brown pig from the across the road and it was coming at me. Terrified as i was, i ran back to CARE. I didnt know what happened to that little pig after that. The AVA might have gotten rid of it or something ((think suckling pig)).. huehue.. Thank god! No way am i gonna risk losing my life over that piggie. Sheeshz! =P. I thought everything has been settled last sunday but obviously nothing has been done.


See.. last sunday, i went to work to do OT (yeah it sucks.. working 7 days per week.. *Sigh*) and during the bus journey at Sungei Gedong Camp.. 3 little pigs came out from the side bushes, crossing the road so fast that the bus driver couldnt brake in time. It was so sudden that everything happened in a split of a second:- the bus ran over two of the pigs while one of the pigs obviously, the cleverest among them, retreated and was saved. It must have been the one i saw just now though it looked alot bigger now. And scary.. The other two were unfortunately "sacrificed?" wahahaha.. with the interiors splattered on the road. What gore sight to see on a beautiful sunday morning. I never seen anything like that before in my whole life. It's sad. It made me wonder for awhile. What made the 3 little pigs ran out like that? Running away from the big bad wolf or what? Poor thing.. anyway, the third pig is not so clever after all.. imagine becoming a suckling pig after 3 days of escaping from death.


Now it made me ponder.. does death really come to us? Cant we cheat death? Reminded me of The Final Destination. This is so super scary. Like as though my work place is not scary enough being strategically located near the burial place.. all these natural forces have to come and disturb us. Disturb Me! *sigh* It no wonder after so long of working in my Department.. one by one of the staffs became mentally ill. Swear!! Im not lying. This is so scary. And yeah.. that sick staff.. Razali.. was retrenched last week.. poor thing.. There goes his rice bowl. I wonder if he's ever gonna find another job. So so Sad.


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