i never expected things to go this way. all was going fine until it all started again..i really dont know what went wrong.. is it me? is it my fault? but why does it always have to be my fault? am i really that detestable? really that horrible a person? why do you like me then? i dont want things to be this way.. why must it turn out like this... im tired.. i wanted us to be happy.. not to be at loggerhead all the times.. i wanted to be pampered.. i wanted your care and your touch.. i yearn the way you caress my hair.. i miss the way you look deeply into my eyes.. holding my chin and smile sincerely... i love the way you hug me and constantly encouraging me to improve on myself.. i need the assurance you always give me.. i need you.. i really need you.. but why of all the times when i need you the most.. you're not there.. you didnt do all the things that you did best. is it because of me? is it caused by me? i know im not the easiest person to get along with.. and so.. i want say that im sorry.. im sorry for everything that ive caused you..

- i know my flaws.. i know i have many of them..

round of applause to my dearest sista for dolling up a kiddy + girly blogskin for me and putting up the template for me... and i dont only like me k.. there's so many things i like.. aiyoo... and wassup with the fuckers and bitches and bastards huh??? anyway... schedule's gonna be tight starting next week so yah... hoping to spend more time with my beloved though it seems so impossible... but we're gonna try our best ya baby? i miss you so much dear..

aku akan terus memperjuangkan hidup seharianku yg penuh dgn pancaroba dunia...

hey dudettes!!!!

yo gerls.. so how's life.. ive been not blogging for so long.. hoping to make it a point to blog everyday though it'll be hard.. but i'll try.. life so far have been pleasant for me.. though i find it hard to wake up everyday to work.. and my tuitions... i shall not even talk abt it no more...

days are pretty bearable now.. basically that's because my tuitions have stopped for the sch hols.. but im starting soon... im very hard up for money.. like veryyyyyyyyyyy hard up for money..

soon its gonna be my 5yrs anniv with my bf.. not sure what to get for him.. someone help me in this.. so low in money wise... so low in ideas... gosh.. wat im suppose to do..

been calling up and sms-ing my frens lately... so happy to know that my frens are doing well.. really hope to catch up with them soon...

ok la.. not really in a mood to talk rite now.. till next time k?

** akan ku tatap wajahmu kerna rinduku semakin membarak..