Its Funny how no one but me wore anything RED!! Super ON seh..
From Left, Lee Hwa, Fizah, Lai Sin, Benji-Benji (just love calling him tt way..hee), and Zhi Hao

Benjamin invited me to his home for CNY..

He's sucha nice fellow.. never forgets me whenever there's a gathering..

But unfortunately.. I've got to work today.. so by the time i reach his home,

Only a few of my classmates were still around..

Benjamin's Mommy and Daddy wasnt there..

They went for a Cruise..

What a loving couple.. How i wish my husband and I would have such a loving married life..

Even though when we have kids.. Our love will never diminish..

Niway, Ben cooked lunch but sorry Ben.. i cant taste it.. Non-halal.. You should cater the food the next time round Benji.. HUHUEHUEHUE..

Oh well, doesnt really matters, coz there's just so much goodies Benji's parents prepared on the table..

We.. well.. actually only me lah.. was trying almost all the goodies.. that i couldnt hear Ben called my name.. Sorry Benji..

I feel so Sinful for eating so much sweets... Oh God..

Lee Hwa brought a Memoirs of a Geisha VCD and we all wathed it together..

Everyone was so lost.. they couldnt understand.. only Ben and Me do..

Of course.. We read the book didnt we Benji? We shared reading the book.. few years ago..

5 years?? Yeah.. i think so.. wahuehuehuehue...

Had so much fun explaining to the rest.. we bonded real good..

Sucha pity that the rest of the class wasnt around..

Well next time then.. Benji.. pls make another outing cum gathering ok?

Cant wait to meet the rest.. WOo Hoo~~!!!

*Bleah* Im so tired... my body aches so much.. my brains throbbing..

I need a rest..

A good soak..

A good massage..

Someone who's willing to dry my hair after that..

Someone to caress my cheeks till i fall asleep..

Now who's that someone??
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Fizah and Family went for a Syarahan last Saturday night at Masjid An Nur..Its about Youth and Family..

We were so motivated after hearing the talk that Dad decided to have a family get-together the following day..

So Fizah and family went to da beach on Sunday for a relaxing, de-stressing and rebonding session.

It felt so good to be able to be so close with my family. Talking and just cracking jokes with each other..

We laughed alot, we chatted alot and we're so nice to each other.. We really enjoyed ourselves..Esp dad.. Sucha dear yesterday..

He called me umpteen times checking on how we're doing at Changi since he is stucked at work. Poor Dad. But he joined us afters.. hee.. Dad's da best!!

We were there at da beach since morning till literally next morning!! that is this morning~!!

Dad sent me to work today.. and fetch me back.. So dear Dad.. thank you for all your support.. Be it emotionally or physically.. I love Ya Dad!!

What a perfect Sunday with Fam'. Im really satisfied..

I've made the right choice this time.. Oh Yes i have..

On our way to da beach in our beloved and beautiful Grandis..

It's relaxing time for Me.. Yeah..

We had so much fun although dad wasnt around..

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What a breezy Wednesday evening...

I enjoyed the good 15mins slow walk back home after work from the MRT just now..

AHHHhhhhhHHH~~~~~~~

The breeze just made me feel so calm.. like as though time just stand still.. Swears!

Sometimes we've just got to take a minute off out time and smell the air. Really!!

I've realised that i've actually been very blessed with so many wonderful things that life can offer..

Of which most of the times.. Either i didnt realise or i took them for granted (while not realising it..) heh!

Thank you people for being in my life and thank you GOD for surrounding me with so many wonderful people..

I may not be the most luckiest woman on earth..

But i am more than contented..

And nothing else matters!!

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Nowadays.. There's just so many people getting engaged and married..

And they're just my age.. so young..

Is it the norm for us to get engaged at 23??

Sayang went for his cousin's engagement yesterday..

She's our age.. Yeah..

I kinda felt envious.. kinda nervous.. kinda scared..

Its hard to explain.. so much mixed feelings kept arousing inside of me..

Even the Berita Minggu newspaper printed an article about weddings.. the mas kahwin.. and the market price for hantaran and sorts.. A whole big chunk of the whole news.. apparently..

It seems like the norm is $8000 - $10,000.

Wow... so much to swallow eh?

Talked to sayang about it.. and sayang asked me this..

" So you regret waiting for me?"

I was like .. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. I was kinda hurt by that..

This morning, my friend called and said she's getting engaged at end of this month..

I was like.. ok..

She asked.. "when's your turn?"

I said.. "if im lucky.. 5 years down the road."

Pictured all those bride-to-bes in flowy lace-gown..

A crown on her head.. The Man by her side..

A big warm smile of happiness and contentment..

Finally being able to be with the love of her life..

Haiyah..

What's my future's gonna be like?

Sheeshz...

Sayang... I wanna you to take care of me forever...

Haiyah.. Fizah's starting her berangan already..

Sheeshz..
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This week was so good..

I almost didnt want this week to end.

Its coz:

1. Gotta spent alot more time with sayang twice this week..
2. Played scrabble and congkak with sayang.. and i won both games.. *Too bad dear*
3. Cooked chicken curry and beancurd soo hoon soup for sayang.. and he loved it.. hehz..
4. Bought a Monsoon Top that cost me $79/- *gasp*
5. Met Fazleen after so long.. But the time's too short. i talked like a shoo-shoo train.. and she said the monsoon top flatterred me.. so YEAH!

Bad side of this week:-

1. Didnt get my much awaited promotion again.. It'll be reviewed again two months later.. *sobz*
2. Two complaints during supply.. It wasnt my fault really.. but i always get the blame.. *double sobz*
3. Syafiq's mom didnt pay tuitiion money.. *triple sobz* Haiyah..
4. I think im short of money after buying that monsoon top.. *wailed*
5. Im freakingly fat.. omg.. somebody help me.. *desperate*

Sayang looked so good on sat.. You look great dear in that shorts.. Really.. wear it more often k?

And you know i always loved that red trojans shirt..

im so deep in love with sayang.. Honey you're so loving to me..

I just love the way you treat me.. I wish it'll never end.

Fizah is so in love- deep deep..

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Im in such a good mood to blog today..

This is my third entry of the day... Hhuehueheu...

Just revamped my bedroom..

Thanks to the faulty stand-fan.. Its all broken into pieces..

Its so beyond redemption.. Brutal seh..

So mum and sista went to buy a new fan.. a wall-fan..

My dad did the fixing of the fan and voila.. my room's a mess..

So of course.. my siblings were asked (read forced) to spring-clean the room since im out watching the Movie-of-the-Year. Hehuehue..

Hey we also celebrate Chinese New Year okey..

Multi Racial what.. Of course have to spring clean..

And of course.. My hammies also wanna celebrate Chinese New Year.. huehue..

I spring-cleaned their cages..

Monki, Didi and Warmmer were so excited..

Its written all over their tails.. Heuheuheuehue...

Monki moved into Didi's home and Didi's into Monki..

Monki was so overjoyed, he immediately climbed all over the cage and did his all-time fav:

Monkey bars.. (that's why his name is monki = monkey) hueheuhue..

Didi on the other hand.. didnt like his new home.. AT ALL!! Sheeshz..

He's like *sniff*sniff* pause find one corner *sniff*sniff* pause *yawnz* pause *sleep*

Didi's so sad.. He's like so depressed.. Like as though crying at one corner..

He's so the manja.. always wanted the best among the three.. always wanted the most attention..

That's why he's named after Him.. hehuehue... coz he's so the manja just like Him..

Warmer, *sigh* i think even when the tsunami hits his cage, he wont even bother..

All he knows is to *bite*bite*bite*bite*bite* his cage.. and now its all rusty..

Warmer.. his name.. i got it for him coz his fur is a warm grey..

B-e-a-u-tiful, silky coat which i think he's very proud of..

Huehuehue.. He show-off his fur ok.. Always licking 'em clean.. Mai-siao-siao ah..

Hmmph.. These are my favourite favourtie lot which never fail to make me smile with their silly acts..

The ones who always keeps me company when he's not around..

The ones who comforts me when there's no one else who cares..

My beloved Monki, Didi and Warmmer..

Im gonna treat you to some nice bites ok? Kebabs??

But i think i need to change the bottles first.. Warmmer's biting the nozzles..

Warmmer.. Warmmer... *shake head*

First things to buy when i get my pay:
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1. Water bottles for Warmmer and Monki..
2. Kebabs wood bites for Monki, Didi and Warmmer..
3. Sand bath.. Those three rascals badly need the scrubs..
4. Food plate for Didi..
5. And if my budget allows.. Wanna expand the tunnels for Didi's home.. Poor Didi.. He's really feelin' all down already..

Sheeshz..

With all that expenses.. i think i will have to minus that Dorothy Perkins black top ive been eyeing for...

ALaaaaaaaMak....

Sheeshz...

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I watched Memoirs of a Geisha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeahh!! Finally!!

I've read the book long time ago in my teenage years and im always visualizing how the whole thing really looks like...

Was so excited ever since late last year when i got to know its going to be made into a movie..

SO WOWWW!!! the kimonos so the very nice... very nice..

And the way they walked.. so the very demure.. very lady like.. Very!!

I know i know not like me.. Im trying ok.. sheeshz..

Ive always visualize how the Chairman would look like and how mameha-oneisan would look like..

Hee... i know they're not the same person in reality..

But just seeing all those characters came to life exactly like that from the book felt so so so GOOD!!

But i was so disappointed that the part where Sayuri's misuake (or was it misuage hmmph..??) which was given to Dr Crab was cut.. I mean the action where his eel went into her cave..

I remembered vividly..in the book.. the writer described explicitly what happened.

Dr crab sent his eels into the cave .. opps.. i mean eel.. huehue.. then there was blood on the white cloth.. Then after his eel's out.. He scrape something and kept the cloth..

That time when i read it.. terasa seh.. but the movie didnt show that.. It showed Dr Crab laying the white cloth on the mat and then he came on top of Sayuri and CUTTT!!

Haiyah.. so disappointing... and they didnt really show how Sayuri went through all the classes.. that should be the most funny part.

So the verdict:

Those who've read the novel "Memoirs of a Geisha" would appreciate it alot.. but to those who didnt.. would find the movie long and boring.. Its a 2 hours 30mins show..

Hmmph.. but it's all worth my money..

Thanks sayang for accompanying me to watch the show.. and to actually read the novel beforehand.. I know you hate reading novels...

You're the best la dear..

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I have been sucha bad bad gerl to my family and Sayang..

Havent been spending enough quality time with them even though its always been my priority at the start of everyday..

I am so sorry..

I hope to make things better..

To be a much much more self reliable and independent..

And most importantly.. To upgrade myself..

i know.. i know.. ckp jer tapi tak buat..

Heyyyy..im trying ok..

Not one person is perfect in this world kan.. Its not an excuse..

Im really trying..

Give me time k?

Well... Yeah.. and to make my sayang even closer to my heart..

And to trust him.. more..

Oh god.. Im sucha imperfect lady.

If nobody's perfect.. And im a nobody.. Am i perfect??

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What a sad sad day it is today..

What a sad sad day..

Im sad it turned out this way..

But who am i to direct the course of life on this unpredictable Earth?


Dont tell me what to do..

Dont tell me what to say..

Dont tell me nothing..

For bearing all these has made me lethargic..

For tolerating all these has made me aged..


Dont tell me what to do..

Dont tell me what to say..

Dont tell me nothing..

For all these while, its the same things that is heard..

For all is nothing but lies and deceit..

For the only glimspe of hope is gone..

For all that is done is in vain..

For nothing is all that is left..


Dont tell me what to do..

Dont tell me what to say..

Dont tell me nothing..

For i myself..

Cannot hear nothing..

Everything is but a whisper to my ears..

Slowly fading and fading..

And then is heard no more..

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Im so sick...

Felt so weak and my head's so heavy..

Felt like one big fat breeder rabbit's sitting on my head..

Oh god..

I ponteng work today..

But they've should have anticipate it lah..

I was like sneezing all the way..

Bleah...

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It has been a gruelling one week..

This week felt so long and draggy..

Im so tired.. and felt so lethargic for past few days..

I dont even have time for myself..

But thank goodness, this dreadful week is finally over..

*phewwwwwwwwwwwww*

I can finally rest my body, my mind and my soul..

Im gonna do some reparation to myself..

Havent quite been in touch with myself..

Time just pass by so fast..

Couldnt catch up..

Couldnt breathe..

Luckily its all over..

I think that's why they gave weekends for us to relax..

Sheeshz..

Let me take a moment *1 sec* *2 secs*

OKEY FIZAH!!

No more whining..

Right!!

Heuehuehue... Life's so funny at work today..

A new guy came to work at CARE..

He's malay..

Tall, got jambang, very the macho, not very tanned, staunch.. like very staunch..

Didnt like him at first... I was like.. "oh man, not a malay guyyyyyy." when i saw him yesterday in the lab..

This morning, while i was waiting for the bus to arrive.. he came towards me and said "hi, saudari nak ke CARE kan?"

I was like "HUHHhhh??!!" "errr.. yeah.."

Then he smiled and he sat beside me in the bus..

I was like "alahhhHHHH... leceh ah.. nak kena layan...arrghhh.. pepagi buta sebok jek!"

Then when we reached CARE, i was busy preparing paper for today's delivery and when i just wanna take my breakfast..

There he was.. seating at my place... My seat!!

I was like " HEYY!!! THAT'S MY SEATTTTTTTT!!!

Of course screamed at him in my heart la..

Then he like tak bersalah said.. " err bleh duduk mana mana kan?"

I was like. "err yah.. tapi i nyer barang sume ader kat situ.."

Then he said " so kerusi ni u nyer la eh?"

I said" yah.. i think so"

He said" oh sorry yer..i tak tahu"

I was like "apa apa ah.."

Then he sat beside me at the coffee table..

I was like "hey.. duduk la jauh jauh sikit.. " (again in my heart)

Before i could say it out loud..

He started introducing himself..

"hi nama saya adi.."

So of course i have to say.. "nama saya fizah"

(like so the kentalz)..

Niway, the way he said it was like "haiii, namaaa sayaaa adiiiiiii"

hmmphhH...

i thought he would finish talking but then he continued..

"You yg buat cucuk2 rats kat dlm lab semlm tu eh?"

( i was separating the pregnant females and checking on the lactating females using forceps.)

Duhh..

i said " uhH yah"

he said " hehe"

I said "heh heh"

When i thought everything was ending and im going inside lab to start work..

Aisah came over and intro us both formally and said..

"Adi, you'll be taking orders and instructions directly from me and fizah.."

So there he is... following everywhere i go...

luckily there's so much of work that ive prepared for him to do..

He've got not much time to talk to me.. SHesshz..

But the after lunch.. afetr he came back from solat..

When all the things are more or less done..

We talked.. and i find him quite an interesting fella..

Funny and we do share some common stuffs...

Like staying at Marsiling..

So that means we went back home together just now..

It was raining... i didnt bring an umbrella... he didnt too..

SO UNLUCKY.. walked with him all the way till Fuchun CC..

oh yah and he shared his epok epok with me just now for tea break..

So sweet right.. he bought it while on his way back from solat..

oh well, maybe he wanted to make friends with me since im his superior..

Psst.. he doesnt look too happy to hear that he'll be taking orders from me.. heuheu..

Broke his man ego i guess... huehuehuHUEHUEHUE..

hmmphh..

Hhey!! oh god.. its almost 7.30pm.. i need to go for tuition..

Yesterday's tuition was fabulous..

Time passed very fast..

Im kinda enjoying tuitions now..

Sunday going over to syafiq's.

Yeah Yeah!!

Till then thank you for reading this long crappy entry from ME..

HUEHUEhuehue..

Asta la vista..

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My tuition's starting this week..

Thank god.. im kinda super duper broke la..

Needed money so badly..

*looking forward to seeing sayang this coming weekend.*

We're going to the beach.. yay!!

I hope it wouldnt rain.. *prays*

Was freaking tired today at work..

Can barely open my eyes.. So sleepy seh..

I wonder why.. i slept so early yesterday..

The workload today was extremely abundant..

I really squeezed out all energy to just end the day..

*sigh* tomorrow's yet another day.. and another day.. and another day..

Then it's my much awaited date..

I am so excited..

Really want to spend some quality time with him..

My resolutions for this year are:

• To spend more time with fam and sayang..
• To move on with my career.. to upgrade myself..
• To be more organised..
• To lose weight.. Arrghhh...
• To save money..
• To plan on my future..
• To be less dependent on ppl..
• To be stable, confident, and more cheerful person..

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Hope i can see sayang today..

Miss him to bits already..

Had a good talk with him before i left for the weekend..

Really relieved me of the many stresses that i have..

Am now more composed and ready to take on the challenges of 2006..

Bring it on guys..

Thanks sayang for listening to me..

Though i know it has been hard for you as much as it had been hard for me too..

But we've emerged stronger and more understanding to each others needs and emotions.

Thanks dear once again.. for i wouldnt be as calm and relaxed if there wasnt you around..

Let's us pray that the bond we've created will last till eternity..

Happy New Year!!!

Woah..

Im so extremely exhausted..

Just ended my OT for today..

Yeah have to come to work on New Year Hols..

Back from Pahat Stone at 2.30am

Wake up to go to work todady at 7.00am

So tired..

But it was all worth it..

Well at least part of it..

Now where do i start??

Hmmm..

Ok! The wedding was so so only la..

Well... actually it was damn boring la..

So boring until my dad said "alamak.. mendak dokkk"

He was so bored to tears and almost "hentak kaki" wanting to go back..

So much so.. that when the MC cracked a joke..

He said out loud.." buat kelakar ke pe?"

Waaa... i was shocked..

Horrified actually..

My dad saying those things..

So the "Hanyut"..

My dad dah upgrade!!

ceh~! bangga dok!!

hueheuheuheue...

Then after everything ended...

We went all the way to abang nuar's home..

We stopped by to eat mee bandung at the warung something something la..

Forget ah...

Well you cant blame me..

I was that damn tired.. i didnt notice anything..

And that handshake really took alot of my energy just to interpret what he's trying to say..

Well.. Its kinda scary..

And to make matter worse..

The song by iklim.. "Bukan ku tak sudi" just sums it all up..

Only me and mom knows..

Mommy, *Secret* ok??

Oh well, When we reached the home..

It was the same old dilapidated kampung home..

But it was cosy.. much cosier than those rich brick house...

They really lived up to the saying "A House is not a Home."

Before we even get out of the car, they already know that we're coming..

I guess it must have been the crackling of the red pebbles that gave us up..

heuheuhue..

Oh anyway.. we talked through the night.. well... not really..

Coz we're so so tired... esp dad.. he was shagged.. *pun not intended*..

hueheue.. but tired as we all are...

All the cousins and wan of course, watched LOTR I..

Yeah yeah... I know.. Its so basi..

But its so good to talk about it.. you know..

The "amalan" that you can learnt from it..

The friendship, trust, sacrifice, Good vs Evil and stuffs like that..

Its so nice to teach my younger cousins all that coz they aint know much english..

So teacher fizah have to enlighten them..

Hhuehuehue.. *puke*puke*..

Anyways, the next morning we had breakfast..

And wanna make a guess what did we have for breakfast??

You wont ever guess it right..

huehueue... we had:

• fried chicken backside *yummy*yummy*
• Kueh Koci ( Its very the delicious sayang)..
• Ubi Rebus cicah sambal tumis ( It even more delicious dear.. You're missing on so much)

Then for lunch we had:

• Nasi plus so many dishes..
• Jantung pisang fresly picked from behind the house..
• Ikan bakar.. freshly taken from the nearby jetty..
• Asam pedas ikan..

They're all so the sedap.. you really should come along honey.. huehue..

Ok.. Then of course.. when all the families unite..

It wouldnt be complete if we dont "nyalor" and watch hindustan..

Oh yeah we did.. *so fun*so fun*..

We went back home that evening and singgah at singgah selalu.

Wan belanja us coz he just got his so called first pay from his new job.. *thanks wan*

The food were so delicious.. Oh yeah.. Wan's sister joined us as well..

So its kinda like a small family reunion.. Well at least.. future-family-to-be reunion..

huehuehue...

We were all so full afters...

Sent wan's sista home.. (i still cant catch her name.. was it liza or fiza?) hmmm..

And as usual we're caught in the jam..

For 2 whole hours.. stucked in JB..

Luckily there wasnt any jam at Spore,

Or i would really wouldnt be sitting here in office typing this.. huehue..

Niways, while we were driving slowly..

There's this malaysian bus.. some sorta bus persiaran..

It hempit so close to us.. that it langgar Grandis's left side mirror..

Poor Grandis... luckily there's not any major sratches on it..

Grandis always get bullied by people.. Poor Grandis..