Im off to Batu Stone for my cousin's wedding this weekend..

Im not looking forward to it..

I wanna usher in the new year in my own country..

With my own group of friends..

But i guess it'll never come true..

It always happens..

I usually never get what i want..

Im kinda used to it..

Bye 2005..

It has been a tough trying year..

Im so not looking forward to go through another year like 2005..

Oh god..

Please let 2006 be a wonderful life experience for me..

With less trying moments for me..

Please..

I badly need some rest..

i feel so worthless.

How i wish i can turn things back..

But how can i do that?

Im having so much regrets in my life..

Im in such poor state..

Im so sad.. helpless..remorseful..

Nobody's with me..

Im all alone..

Deserted.. Alienated..

I feel like a pig..

Looks like a pig..

Behaving like a pig..

What a piggy life im leading..

Why cant i be happy with myself..

Oh god..

Please help ME!!

Its downpouring again...

So cold.. windy..

I can see the heavy drops of water gushing down..

I like.. i like..

Perfect for dreaming session..

Oh boy..

Im still so thinking of this morning..

How i wish the bell didnt wake me up..

I wanna know how it finishes..

Its been so long since i felt that way..

Im in such a dreamy mood..

And the weather's been so kind on me..

What a moment..

Ahhhhwwww.....

**bubble make** **bubble burst**

He is gone for another camp..

Im so missing him..

Is he the prince who gave me 4 rings to choose from??

Ahhhhhhwwwww....

Why oh Why??

It was so so abrupt..

They proposed to me..

In somewhat looked like a hospital/laboratory place..

I was so puzzled..

There were two of them..

Waiting for my reply..

But i didnt say "I Do"..

The alarm clock woke me up..

Hmm.. is that a sign??

Yesterday...means a lot to me..

Today...Will be history for tomorrow..

Tomorrow.. will be today im going through..

And im going through it with you,

Sayang,

Thank you for being my pillar of support..

Sayang,

Thank you for being in my life and going through it with me..

Through thick and thin..

Through difficult years and more demanding years to come..

For i know one thing..

You will never be my History..

I love you..

And loving you means Forever..

I will be there for you..

As you will always be there for me..

Muaccks..

A family's Gathering... How nice.. only nana is not inside the pic.. she's the camera woman.. she always has to be one.. poor nana.

Mommy's chocolate cake from my fav bakery.. Mommy knows me best!!

We're saggitarius!! Only difference is the number of candles!! Im on the right most.. the rest is Daddy's!! hueheuhue..

Sayang's mango cake for me.. I lurve yellow and i lorve fruit cake.. Sayang understands me most..

Im on 16th and Daddy's on 19th..

Thanks sayang for suprising me with your presence... and the roses too.. Ehh??

Now we've got the right person... Its my sista!! She suprised me with the bouquet of roses... I'm lovin it.. :)

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Yezza!!!

I've finally changed my blog...

Kinda like the sun rays..

But the screen is not full..

But at least i wouldnt have to tolerate with small wordings nimore..

Will search for a nicer one..

Till then..

Soak up in the sunset..

The warmth of the evening sun..

The serenity of the music..

And enjoy reading and looking through my photos..

Tata..

Im sick of my blogskin...
Its so yucks now..
I dont like it..
But i cant do anything to it now since ive not regained enough enthusiasm to actually change it...
Whatever!!

16 December 1983..
It was a beautiful moment for couple Mr Rahim and Mdm Mariam
It marked the birth of their first child..
ME!!
They named me NURHAFIZAH..

16 December 2005..
22 years later..

The Rahim's family was celebrating my Existence..

My birthday was so good..
Initially i thought no one is gonna celebrate it.
I was so bored..and so stressed that day i didnt want to celebrate it myself..
Of course the first person to wish me is my bf.. That i have to as him to wish me..
Sheeshz... so it doesnt count really..
Next person to wish me is my dad!!
He woke up early just to say happy birthday..
Hee.. so sweet right..
Next.. were of course my staffs and my friends..
Then suddenly at around afternoon..
I received a phone call..
I thought someone was palying a prank on me coz i couldnt hear any voice..
But suddenly.. i heard the "Happy Birthday" tune..
It was so nice..
Guess who called me?
Yes!! Its him.. MY WACKY BRO!!
And then he hung up..
Wat the....
But it was nice.. really..
Made me smile a little..

When i got back home..
My mom was preparing some really good stuffs for me..
I could smell the frangrance that came out of her haven..
Hehueheuheu... It was all so good.
I wanted to eat coz im so famished..
And the smell aint helping me in any way..
But dearest mommy said we'll have to wait till Daddy's finished Reading his Quran.
And that's was like 9pm..
Time checked :5.45pm..
Oh god!!

So i spent the time watching TV..
Watching "the biggest loser" that slimming programme"
They showed Macaroni cheese piling up on a huge bowl..
Oh god!!
And the smell from the kitchen is so inviting..
Asked my mommy for leniency..
Mommy said a flat NO!

Time passed by..
Time checked: 8.50pm..
I received yet another call..
Sayang called..
He said " what are you doing? Enjoying yourself? good party??"
I shrugged and said" Yeah right!"
And he said " Could you just come out of your house now?"
And the next thing i saw was my sayang.. holding a huge yellow box of cake..
YIPPEE!!
I was shocked to see sayang..
He's supposed to be in camp..
He said " oh i told the officer, my wife is expecting and i need to leave"
God.. I almost choke on my saliva upon hearing that..
Of coz the real reason was that his troop got the highest rate of IPPT passed..
so he got some time off..
What a perfect timing..
What a miracle..

Time checked: 9.15pm..
My sister just got back from her NUH attachment..
And we were all sitted at the table.. waiting... waiting..
Suddenly.. A sweet bouquet of white roses was held out to me..
Oh my..
I was so suprised..
It was so so pretty..
And its my favourite.. White roses..
YIPPEE!!

Time checked: 9.17pm
Finally, we got to eat my luncinner (lunch + dinner)..hee..
i was even more suprised when mommy bring out another cake..
YIPPEE!!
I got TWO cakes for my birthday..
One Chocolate cake from mommy..
One Mango cake from sayang...
YEAH!!
I was in such estatic mood..

Time checked 9.55pm..
Sayang had to return back to camp..
Daddy and mommy and me sent him..
Then we went to nenek's house..

What a B'day Party!!
I totally didnt expect it to be so good!!
It was awesome!!

WAAAAHHH!!

Im swarmped.. There's so much to do.. im suffocating slowly..

Woahhh... when's all these gonna slow down??

im so tired.. literally..

My bum still hurt..

Ouchhhhh... Really!!

The Golden Pillow










Tear up the Bread and inside you'll find...

Curry chicken!! Its a big portion. Really!! But i thought the bread's a lil' too small for 4 ppl.

CHeers~!!! May the both of you find eternal happiness in your journey of life.

Can we start now? We're super hungry already!!

It's a bitter-sweet day for me coz today marked the last day of the poly attachment students in CARE. Starting next week, they'll moving over to sAHU and then to AHU and in their absence my work is gonna be tripled.. Sheeshz.. I have lost two of my most helpful helpers.. Im so gonna miss you all babes.. May you enjoy yourselves in NUS..

So to thank Jie Min and Jie Hui, Aisah treated us lunch.. The Golden Pillow.. Its so delicious Dear.. Yum Yum!! We had our meal in group of fours ala makan nasi ambeng. We were so full afters that we were so lazy to start work.. so yeah.. All my work is pushed to next week..you've got it.. PROCRASTINATION!! It has long become my middle name.. My name is Priscilla Procrastinationia. Thank you.. heuhue.. Oh watever.. =P

My Mak Busu and her family came over from KL to visit my dad.. so we all went to have early dinner first at KFC (my bro told them masa time raya.. kalau nak makan KFC, mesti dtg singapore dulu... hah kau, kan dah dtg, belanja kau.. tu la lain kali jgn gatal mulut buat janji... wakakaka).. oh yah.. not enough with KFC, my bro treated us to Pizza.. that latest one as advertised on tv.. I think, personally, its a little too cheesy.. not very nice.. but its ok la... Free aper..

Then afters we went to my Pak Andak's home and the wife said she didnt cook. So we went out to have late dinner, like at 11pm.. its more like a supper la.. heuhue.. confused already.. too much food.. I didnt order any food, just honeydew juice but i ended up eating chicken satay, fish ball noodles that my cousin ordered but at last minute didnt want to eat, rojak petis, clams with sweet sour sambal chilli (yummy!!) and fried rice.. my mom begged me to help her with it since she's struggling to finish it..

So let me wrap up the whole day...

1. So lucky that i got a treat 3 times in a day.. Lunch, dinner, supper!!
2. Super full, sleepy but cant sleep coz stomach too bloated. hueheu..
3. My efforts of two days of fasting's gone down e drain since i stuffed myself so much today.
4. Yeah!! Cant wait to see my sayang tomo... I miss sayang so much!!
5. Gonna spend my weekends to the max.. coz starting monday.. Its HELL TIME!! =...(

When I close my eye at the end of the day,
I smile because I know.
No matter how busy you will be,
You'd still have time to show,
What you think and feel for me;
It shows in all your acts,
You'll never let your sweet love fade or slip through any cracks.

You are the love of my life,
You give me purpose for living,
You are my cherished one,
The reality I have been seeking.

You've brought to my life a world,
That I've never seen before,
One filled with sunshine and love,
Tenderness, and so much more.

Always, you have been in my heart,
You are a special gift from above,
You're the reason why my life has changed.
Now filled with gladness and delight,
Is because, my love, you've given me,
Everything i'd ever searched in my Mr Right.

Baby, you're the thief of my heart.
And, forever grateful as I will always be,
That first day, right from the start,
Love isn't love until the moment you stared back at me.