I am so beaten up into a pulp..

I am squeezed out dried..

I just finished a report.. but still need to do another essay, presentation and another 2 reports to finish by end of this week..

I am so so busy..

And its not helping the fact that im down with flu.. just sneezed out blood just now. think im too heaty. too stress.

Im swarmed!! :O

Slept at 4am yesterday.. did ALAT revision. did the test today.. relatively easy but totally jumbled up all the analgesics and anesthesias and the tranquilizers and anti-helminths and what-have-yous.. too many medications to remember. I guess i need sleep. I can sleep like a pig now.

Oh God, please help me to persevere.. I need your guide now.

My big day is drawing near. But somehow im not so eager about it anymore. Maybe because the day is just two days after sayang's surgery. Although its a relatively easy procedure, im still nervous nevertheless. Im scared. I'd pray for sayang's speedy recovery so that we can go out and celebrate our anniversary.

Im also not very eager to go out nowadays coz exams are drawing near and ive got tons of assignments awaiting for me yet to be done. And not forgetting how much ive busted my savings, its insane if i still go on spending more cash. But i so WANT to buy blouses. They're really selling at so so cheap price. And that's why it sucks to go out nowadays.. We go shopping ended up buying nothing. Bleargh!

We thought we could entertain ourself by taking more photos..

And take dumb photos just to fill our empty hearts (and pockets!!!)

But we're still thinking of that Blouse... Haiyah.. Sobz

Then we reached home.. Tadaaaa!!!!!

And the next morning we flew back.. Coast of Minangkabau is inviting aint it??

There was a live band accompanying our dinner.. and dearest tour duide Pak Henri sang "Widuri" for my family... Awwww.. How sweet~~!!


And we had our last dinner @ Padang.. Cheers~!!

The Grand stairs at the hotel.. Awaiting for our dinner..

Tiga dara berangan..

Luas mata memandang, luas lagi si Danau Meninjau..

My sister ngan "Miss Minangkabau??"

The Minangkabau Museum..

My parents so loving kan.. Couple jackets lagi.. so cute..

Kita makan ala kampung style.. huehue

Ntah macam mana la si Mickey sesat ni bleh tercampak kat Bukit Tinggi..

Org nak buat rambut "spikes",my dad pun nak jugak.. Tapi tengok la!!

If only badan i macam patung ni kan best.. *Sigh*

"The Waterfall" @ Padang

i changed to a new blogskin..

Is it ok or not?

just wanna share this picture with you gals...

its taken during my holiday trip to bukit tinggi..

it was soooooo so cool...

Enjoy!! :O

I tot of writing something since its been eons since i wrote something in.

Thing is i barely got enough energy left every night to blog..

Not to say think of something to blog on..

And to actually turn on my pc.. bleargh... no no no man..

So here i am.. no class today.. blogging my entry..

hopefully this will not be the last entry.. hueheuhue :))

Watched Oprah just now.. Apparently it was Valentine's day

and yeah so everyone was like in love dovey mood and

so naturally i thought of my baby..

but clearly my baby was way to busy to think of me for a sec..

so here i am still waiting for a call or even an sms from him saying HI..

And i went on watching couple fear factor..

And i thought of how if me and alfian were to join in..

Im not a competitive person by nature and Alfian's the opposite.

I dont like to rush. i dont like that adrenaline thingy rushing all over my body..

I dont like it.. AT ALL...

So i conclude that...

If i ever join that FF thing with alfian..

He jollywell's gonna embarass me in front of everyone..

coz he'll be like... cursing me.. and dragging me to the shore just to get the time.. ((like the way that negro man pulled his gf.. wth??))

ok.. so after thinking about all that..

my brains got jammed and i thought ..

ok that's it man.. no more couple shows for me for the night..

Im just gonna finishmy report asap...

so then i turn on my pc.. and

no no no..

I didnt do my report..

I did this entry..

haiyah... so now .. im just gonna stop here.. andbetter start doing my report..

or else i cant finish in time to watch CSI...

yeah yeah yeah...

So see yah..

Psst: i think i dont like to watch tv... esp the commercial part..

They always show that bikini models modelling in ice cold set..

I get very depressed when i see that advertisement..

haiyah.. its just my depression mood setting in lah..

Im in so low low spirit today..

always wanna get angry..

i wonder why??

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i am so dead!!

School is sucha chore..

Work is alot more cumbersome..

So S + W = D

where S= School, W= work and D= Dead. ( kinda affected by bf's exams fever)

Im so DEAD!!

Penat ahhh mak!! :((

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Huwoww!!!

Times really flies! Just when i think im stable enough financially to really think of saving up for future times.. there'll be something that would prevent me from saving up for the rainy days..

Life's gonna be hard from now on.. Im so used to having the luxury of spending but now i'll have to scrimp and save watever cash that i have.. that's the penalty for being a student. heh!!

But i guess its part and parcel of being successful.. one has to face up to hardship.. thankfully, there's my dear who would always think of ways to cheer me up..

Its kinda scary to go back and study after so long of retiring from that tedious long hours of lectures and of course the gruelling exams.. Initially, im kinda excited about this whole issue on going back to school, but now that its just tomorrow that classes are gonna start, im really nervous..

Money problems aside, its just the whole new environment thingy that's freaking me out.. i hope i can get suited to everyone and most importantly, get suited to the schedule.. work then study.. everyday's gonna really tire me out..

God, please help me and see me through this trying phase of my life.. I need all the strength that i have to embrace this period of uncertainties..

I really tire myself out this week.. did so many surgeries and next week's gonna be worse.. wat with juggling of my studies.. oh man.. my brains gonna be squeezed out.. heh!

Sayang had been so nice to me.. knowing that im so stressed.. and knowing that i love to be alone at the beach looking out at the sea to make me more calm.. he actually drove me to the Yishun Dam.. So sweet of you honey! Well, it may not be the beach but it certainly is very quiet and more peaceful. there's lesser activity and it really made me feel so so in peace with myself and i felt so much more calm..

I really dont know how to describe this feeling that i have now.. Im kinda like a little school girl carrying her oversized school bag not knowing where to go.. sheeshz... :$

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I finally got my deserved promotion.. Thank you God!!

And i also got my desire to further my studies...

Will be taking Degree in Biomedical Sciences.. Cant wait to start school..

Im glad things turn out in my favour.. finally..

All the waitings and sacrifices are well worth..

I have so many people to thank..

And i wanna thank them personally..

Im so happy..

I hope this is not the end..

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I am a busy girl but i am very happy..

But im extremely worried for my application..

WOnder how it's going..

Still no news from Sharon..

Hope everything goes on smoothly..

Hmph.. ive been getting irritating calls from someone with this mobile phone..::

::93514885::

He or she always give me missed calls..

Its very annoying especially when im in the sterile room where receiving calls are not a priviledge.. Its very very restricted..

And all i got was no sound..

That person on the other line seems to like hearing me getting all frustrated having to repetatively say hello.. Argghhh!!!!

Im waiting for a very impt call from Sharon and this bloody asshole keeps harassing me!!

If i know who this asshole is.. he/she gonna get all the curses in the world from me..

Argghhh!!

Im going mad just thinking of it..

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Weekend was great...

Met up with my nephews at JB..

Stayed overnight at a hotel.. So best..

Ate so much at Dataran..

They were so excited to see me and mom..

We had sucha good times chatting, joking and sleeping together..

I mean.. sleeping besides each other..

Imagine 7 on a bed.. It was so cramp yet so comfortable..

Giggles.. giggles.. giggles all night through..

Next day.. Had breakfast at the hotel..

Laze somemore and then we went for a sumptous lunch at Hutan Bandar..

So best.. Dik Yin had a soak at the pool.. his wish for the school hols..

Felt so happy that his wish was granted.. hee.. :)

I really dunno that there's a pool in JB.. In a Hutan somemore..

I hope they had a fantabulous school holiday..

It really made mom's and my weekend so well spent..

Weekened ended so fast.. sobz..

I missing their giggles already..

hmmph..

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Yay!! im so happy today..

OHR called me to ask about my new salary starting next month.. Yay!!

Im so happy to quote my price.. heh.. Aisah told me to quote $2300/-

Can you believe it?? its a bit over lah.. i think.. so i quoted lower than that..

But Aisah said that she'll write up a report to review my salary should it be below than the expected salary of Biopolis...

So cool rite??? I mean.. Which boss is so caring as to do that to their staffs..

Im so fortunate.. To have Aisah and Dr Leslie Retnam as my bosses..

I hope everything goes well for me from here..

Its been sucha tiring week for me..

Ive been tasked to take up more demanding jobs..

Meetings are like every week nowadays.. Work are piling up..

But i kinda like it.. hee..

Maybe next week , i'll be posted to the Rabbit House.. then to Guinea pig room..

Cant wait to llurvvveveee them..

Yey babies.. comma to mommy.. hehz..

But with so much things on my plate.. ive been really bad to my students..

Keep cancelling my tuitions.. i feel bad.. but sometimes i really exhausted all my energy there's really nothing left of me..

im so drained..

So swarmed by the overflooding workload that poured in so suddenly..

I guess im just gonna end here.. need to start on my monthly report now..

Its been procrastinated since last April.. can you believe it??

Im so gonna burn midnight oil tonight..

Backdate count the total rodents population..

Im so gonna count numbers of rats and mice to sleep..

Not sheeps..

And that suck.. Bleargh..

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Hey hey hey!!!

So wassup ppl???

Whoa... so much have happened during the past 2 weeks..

I was such a busy bumble bee..

Weekend with boyfriend was enchanting..

My work is getting boring day by day..

Im so looking forward to my April promotion

And hopefully starting school early this April..

So exciting...

But fer now have to bury my head in my huge ALAT notes..

And hopefullyI i will ace the paper... YEAH..

So got to go now.. have alot of stuff to accomplised..

Many many things... hueheuheuehuehue./...

SECRET..

Yeah.. even to YOU.. hueheuheu..

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I think im on my way to realising my dream.. my dad's dream..

I hope everything will goes on smoothly and as planned..

Please God.. Give me another chance.. I want it so so badly.. isk isk..

And.. Thank You Dear.. for all that you've done fer me..

Being there fer me.. Always..

For constantly replenishing me wif moral boosters when my self esteem diminished..

For having been my sole companion thruout all my tribulations, my difficulties..

These tries are just the beginning...

I hope to have you going through all these with me in times to come..

Coz i know you will.. wont ya honey?

Really..

I am so blessed to have a Man like you.. in my life...


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Aku perlukan lelaki perkasa,
Mampu menjadi langkah dalam setiap rasa lelahku,
Menjadi nafas bagi setiap rasa sesak,
Menjadi nyawa bagi setiap jiwa mati suri,
Untuk tempuhi rona hidup ini..
Bersama..

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MMmmm... i am so so tired..

Had a long day today..

Went to NUS fer a course regarding the laws of using laboratory animals fer research purposes..

My god, there's a million of tedious laws to remember..

NACLAR, IACUC, IACOOP, AAALAC and of course AVA's guidelines all have to know..

sheeshz.. dry dry topic..

cant wait fer tomorrow..

will be having lectures on Anaesthesia and Analgesia, Pain and distress of animals.. Animal handling and blood collection

And the best part... lecture on Surgery Post-operative Care and Euthanasia...

Yay!! so Best!!

cant wait.. yay!!

My fingers are so pain right now.. thanks to the glove changing exercise..

All have to depend on me to change 'em.. haiyah.. so manja lah these ppl..

Next time must teach 'em a lesson..

Waaaaa.... so tired so tired..

Think needa go to bed.. Recuperate for tomorrow's big lecture.. Woo Hoo..~!!!

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It is such a greattttttttt Sunday.. but tomorrow will be monday.. hectic day fer me.. but watever.. i dont wanna talk about that now.. heh..

Im so happy.. so so happy..

My date with Sayang was so good.. It was perfect..

Met Sayang early morning to eat breakfast at Mac @ CWP..

We talked.. Sayang look so handsome in his black trousers and shoes.. and that RED TROJANS shirt.. i like.. heh..

Sayang smell nice.. the afterbath smell.. Mmmmm.. =P

Then we went to the aerospace thingy... and i must confess that i didnt like it so much..

There's just too many people.. i saw people's armpits (my height doesnt help in any way), not planes..

There's not much planes to begin with.. just some cut turbines, and odd looking metals which i really couldnt make out..

I mean.. how is it possible, with the overflowing number of people jamming up the exhibition area.. Its almost impossible to even catch a glimpse of the 747 boeing model plane..

OK, that complaint aside.. the date after the exhibition was just pure paradise..

No.. no.. no.. He didnt give me any gifts..

Nor did he give me any surprises or what..

But he cooked for me.. I mean.. My boyfriend COOKED lunch for me.. Yay!!

It tasted real good lah honey!! Really!!

Bf cooked mee maggie goreng campur telor, sayur and sotong..

No.. no.. no.. that's not all..

He made sandwiches.. tuna.. my favourite.. and he added Black pepper in it (Mmmm??)

Oh but it tasted great dear.. really.. though weird.. but anything that you've made with love fer me.. will always taste very YUMMY!!

We had our little picnic lunch at the little garden in Tampines Mall.. something Plaza.. cant remember what name..

Niways, Alfian dear never forgets the drinks..

He made TEA.. and its still piping hot.. coz Alfian baby knows i like my Tea hot..

So he purposely packed the tea in a thermal flask.. How sweet of YOU honey..

After we had the Great Meal.. heh.. we went to watch Final Destination 3 at Tampines Mall..

Being the first timers there (we're the north-people), when i bought the tickets and saw that our seatings was Q row, i was like..

"huh.. Why so front?? She should have told me that we're gonna have to take the front seats.. so i could like ask fer another movie or something.. it was already so bad that i couldnt choose the seatings.. bleah..."

Complained to Sayang.. but Sayang being Sayang.. just smile and shrugged.. heh..

I was like.. just get it done and over with lah.. and wanna to just storm off to the front row when Sayang tapped my shoulders and..

You should have look at our wide opened mouths.. we just gaped and gasped..

Hey hey hey.. we've gotta the most backrow..and no one was on our row.. woo hoo~!!

FD3 was a blast.. so so good.. predictable.. but still good and gore... though most of the time i'll tucked my head under Sayang's armpit during the gore scenes.. hueheu..

We went home after the movie.. Tampines is so far far away from Wlds.. and Alfian dear has sch tomo.. and i've gotta werk.. so yeah..

At my home, Mom made bubur pengat ubi and Alfian lurvved it.. heh..

All in all, today was such a perfect date.. im so so sorry it ended way to fast..

I had so much fun.. though very very tired.. but very very happy...

Thanks Alfian dear for making me feel so happy.. even now.. heee..

Im gonna have Sayang's sandwiches for breakfast tomorrow at werk..

Everyone's gonna be so so envious of me... huehuehue...

~ Fizah's so happy, she's smiling to sleep..
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nurhafizah -- [adjective]: Smells like teen spirit 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

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I often stare off into space..
And dream of a wonderful place..
Where you and I are held in an embrace...
I know you wont let me go..
Because in your heart you know..
Even if my feelings don't show..
I need you in my life to grow..

I need you more than life itself..
Without you my life is almost empty..
Whether you know it or not..
I need you to need me..
It's not enough for me to have you..
A love like that is never true..

I need you to be happy..
I need you to relax..
I need you beside me..
I need to know you need me..

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Just something that came out of the blue.. Just something that popped out of my head when i was thinking of sayang so much.. It's somewhat how im feeling rite now.. but somehow.. it didnt really depicts the real picture.. I cant find the right words to describe the void im feeling inside..Well, feelings are so hard to put in words, arent they... Especially when it's about the matters of the heart!! :)

Oh boy.. i miss Alfian so much.. Dearie.. pls settle whatever things you've needa do.. I cant wait to have you all to myself.. I need you.. Well, I want you.. Badly.. *sigh* :((

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I miss my boyfriend..

I wanna see him so much..

I need a huge hug from him..

I received a present from Farihah last mon..

Thanks farihah for the beautiful embroided mirror plus the cute bag to hold it..

I lurvve it alot.. Its so pretty.. Thanks again..

You've done alot for me gerl..

I owe you one.. heh.. muacckkks.. :D

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Sunday was Great!!

I didnt have any tuition.. Again.. Sobz..

It seems like Syafiq's mom is trying to delay payment.

*Sigh* Its always like that.

But its ok though coz i could wake up late and enjoy breakfast with family..

Mom said that Mak Andak fell down and broke her spine.. and Pak Andak came tumbling after..

Heh.. jk jk jk jk...

Mak Andak fell down and broke her right arm..

Poor her.. the whole arm is in cast.. It look so swollen.. *shake head*

I can imagine how difficult it's going to be for her to do all the everyday routine..

Sleeping, Bathing, Working?? *sheeshz*

Really hope she'll get well soon.. She's in sucha bad bad luck.. Poor Mak Andak.

Niways, my fam' and I went to see how's she's doin and stuffs..

And afters, Dad belanja the whole fam to eat Seafood at Woodlands Checkpoint Coffee Shop..

The Verdict!! So marvellous!! There's so much food, there's almost no space on the table..

Actually there isnt any.. We really had so much fun talking and cracking jokes..

Esp how Mat Arip terperanjatkan Ayah kat Lift landing..

Hah, buka silat ayah.. Poor Dad, he was really so so shocked..

But it was so funny, we laughed our way home.. Till all of us had stomach cramps..

It felt good. Really. Its been so long since i had a good laugh..

Although its at the expense of dad. heh.. sorry dad for being Mat's partner in crime..

It wasnt planned.. *swears* *evil grin*

What a nice gathering to end the weekend..

Wow.. Its monday already.. i'd better get some sleep..

Daa...

The Superb Spread! There's Tom Yam Soup, Black Pepper Prawns, Sweet Sour Gurame Fish, String Ray with chilli, Butter sotong fried in oats flour (i think.. heh..), Fried Bee Hoon, Hot Plate Egg Tahu and Stir-fry Baby Kailan.. It was SO YUMMY!! :):)

While waiting for food, we took photos again.. Its a routine for us.. heh..

Top: -NANA and SIS-

Aint they look so loving that day.. I think Dad's kinda VERY happy that everybody can spare some time together this weekend.. Cant you see it from his face.. Glowing with Happiness.. I love ya Dad!!

Top: -Mom and DAD-

We just love playing pranks on others.. As others on DAD.. heh heh.. :P

Top: - ME and MAT ARIFF-

Still posing since the food hasnt arrived yet.. Kinda sleepy also.. see that eyes..

Top: -ME-

My pose so the "act cute" seh.. All thanks to NANA.. heh.. :P

Top: -MOM, ME, MAT ARIFF-

Wadda Good Good weekend spent.. twice in a row.. Happiness!!

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