When I close my eye at the end of the day,
I smile because I know.
No matter how busy you will be,
You'd still have time to show,
What you think and feel for me;
It shows in all your acts,
You'll never let your sweet love fade or slip through any cracks.

You are the love of my life,
You give me purpose for living,
You are my cherished one,
The reality I have been seeking.

You've brought to my life a world,
That I've never seen before,
One filled with sunshine and love,
Tenderness, and so much more.

Always, you have been in my heart,
You are a special gift from above,
You're the reason why my life has changed.
Now filled with gladness and delight,
Is because, my love, you've given me,
Everything i'd ever searched in my Mr Right.

Baby, you're the thief of my heart.
And, forever grateful as I will always be,
That first day, right from the start,
Love isn't love until the moment you stared back at me.

My day sucked big time today..

Here's why..

____________________Suay No. 1___________________________

I got up early and went to work early today so that nobody's gonna have to wait for me again for being punctual.. sheeshz. (the bus leaves at 7.30am.. is it wrong to arrive at 7.26am sharp everyday???) This morning i arrived at 7.12am but the bloody bus driver arrived late..(she's the one who always complain i late.. sheeshz). She reached at 8.05am!!!

_____________________Suay No. 2__________________________

My left arm was swollen so suddenly i didnt even know where it came from. Aisah said it is allergy to rat's fur.. but common' man.. im in this line for a year plus alredy.. now then want to allergic meh?? i know sometimes allergy takes some time to show but really i dont think its allergy... its more like a bug bite... though i know not which bug bite me... sheeshz... there's like 3 bites on my hand.. and its swelling and its painful... arghhhhhhhhh.... no time to go see doc somemore.. sheeshz....

____________________Suay No. 3___________________________

I lost my earrings at work.. It might have came off when i took off the mask and the buffon cap in the lab..


Aiyah... why like that... so suay.... sheeshzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... *sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh*


Well at least i get to see ma bf today.. Went to his pasar mlm stall and help him and his fam to sell some food.. It went on well i supposed since im not involved in the profit counting. hee... niway.. sayang sent me home by car. Initially it was horrible.. i was damn terrified since i think he went too fast and was changing lanes too often.. i was like clutching my handbag like so tight.. hueuheuhue... but when sayang started to go slower and sticked to the middle lane.. it was pure heaven... A chill and cool ride home...

Thanks sayang... :)

I am so tired. It seems like everyone wanna a piece of me..

I'm exhausted.. My mind's in a whirl.. Cant seem to focus anymore..

I feel that im weakening..

Actually.. i feel so sick..

My body has been aching.. all my joints feel like its gonna come off any moment.

My head feels so heavy.

I need a rest.

I dont wanna go work tomo.

I need someone to cuddle me to sleep..

But there's always no one..

I slept alone..

Again..

**phew**phew**

The buffet lunch went well.. actually it was sucha splendid spread that everyone praise the cooking. Mr Phua was like asking me early in the morn at the pantry

Phua:"fiza, can you tell me what your mom's gonna cook for us today?"
Fiza: "i dunno sir, but both my dad and mom are gonna cook."
Phua:"Err, can you give me a rough idea what they are cooking?"
Fiza:"why sir? you have any allergies?"
Phua:"nah, i just want to visualise what im gonna eat later.. Must be as nice as the last time."
Fiza:"Err.... heee... oook."

Then at 11.30am.. everyone was like waiting at the porch.. (usually they'll loiter at the pantry) to see if Grandis arrived already.. sheesshz.. once they saw it, Cik Jo ran into the pantry and screamed "Fiza, fiza bapak ko dah dtg." hueheu.. it seemed like as though im going to get married like that... sheeshz.. everyone was like so excited..

But it was sad that the buffet was spread on a metal table instead of wooden table.. So sad coz my dad couldnt put the table curtain hence not so grand.. if not sure like professional catering. All that Big Bad Wolf's fault.. i hate her sooooooo fu**ing much. All that she knows is to complain.. ive never seen anyone as detestable as her in my whole life.. shesshz..

But all in all.. the lunch was a success.. Everyone was happy. the director of Lab Animal Centre asked me for a business card.. i was like " what the....?" business card???" heee.. Never thought it'll be that good. so good that even after we end our work and was in the NUS van going to mrt, they're still talking about it.. Sheeshz... "dear ppl, dont praise us too much la... we're not up to that standard as yet.. heuheue.." but thanks anyway, for letting us do business with you.."

its kinda a good feeling actually to see so many ppl appreciate the food and seeing so many happy and contented faces. It made me feel so at ease.. Me and fam was so anxious the whole day yesterday. But thank god, the food was just enough for everyone there and to ta-pao back.. lucky there was no wastage.. huehue.. ok ok...enuf enuf.. that's all about work..

Yes i am happy... hee..

Dear bf, please do take care of your health ok? you always get sick in times of exams. Im sure you're gonna do good for all the papers so dont freak out ok.. you'll do just fine. Trust me honey. I BELIEVE IN YOU!! :)

Do end your exams soon dear. i so cant wait to go out with you again. But of course that will have to wait till after your camp, your reservice, your chalet.... yada yada yada yada... :(

Im really gonna celebrate my bday alone it seems. Sobz..

sheeshz..

Are men such a no-feeling creatures??

It was just just now that me and mom casually talked about men and how ungrateful they can be..

• One of my not-so-close relative's husband just got married to another janda and now she's the first wife while that janda is the second.. Previously, the wife's got a pretty comfortable salary but sayang suami punya pasal.. she resigned since he forced her to.. But a year later, he also resigned and became a taxi-driver and guess what?? that's where he met the mak janda.. drove her here and there sampai la jadi bini dia.. Sheeshz...
• My cousin, poor her, she's only been married for 2years that time and her husband cheated on her like so obviously... she came to know abt it and confronted him. he said sorry and they forget about the episode.. but apparently, he didnt. coz he was so busy cheating on his wife again and again and again.. and his wife, my cousin, forgave him again and again and again.. but now.. they've separated. their married life lasted for exactly 4years only. Her husband left her with nothing.. nothing at all.. all the furniture he took them all back and sold to the karang-guni man... and that's like just few days to raya.. poor mak ndak have to go shopping for furniture.. sheeshz..
• My colleague, Micheal, told me( more like he boasted it) that he has got a mistress and that she has just bore him a child. Sheeshz.. and all this while the wife dunno abt it. Well, she did la.. but he told her that they've broken up long time ago and that they never keep in contact. but never did the wife realise that he actually got an apartment in sembawang for that woman already. so its like playing hide and seek..

Mon - comes to work
Tue - On MC ( boss tot he's on MC. wife tot he went to work. he went to Sembawang)
Wed - Half day ( wife tot he's working. he went to sembawang. Again.)
Thu - comes to work, go back at 3pm ( nt feelin well, took time off, went to sembawang)
Fri - Go see doctor ( wife tot he's workin. He went Sembawang.)
Sat/Sun - Go Sembawang. (wife thought he came to work Over Time)

• Another colleague of mine, Cik Johari. he told his wife that he's off to play badminton (carrying his badminton and in sports outfit) but in actual fact, he is in Batam. and he daringly told me that.. Batam sampai, Isteri tinggal.

And now i've received a call from my gf telling me how her 5 years of relationship ended just because her man said "we're not fated to be together" and that "times are different now, we have different views and paths of life to lead".."i dont have feelings for you anymore..".. "i wanted to focus on my career" and that was that..

Sheeshz.... what have become of people nowadays?? Are we not faithful to the one and only? does the phase "my one and only" still stands in this society?? till death do us part??

i cant imagine the pain these women endured. The pain inflicted by the one person whom they loved whole heartedly.. the one person whom they willingly sacrificed their everything. To these men, i would say, shame on you people, you guys bring nothing to mankind but destruction and sorrows.

Of course im not just talking about the men but the women as well.. Sheeshz.. and i dont even know where to start... i mean.. there's a malay saying.. "the tree wont sway if there's no wind"..

so go figure.. Sheeshz..

Its been so long since ive blog. Ive always wanted to blog but when i see the computer by my bedside.. my mind just say go to sleep fiza.. go to sleep.. so i did.. but now its 6.10pm and its too early to sleep. my mind tells me to go blog.. so i did... huehueheuhue...

All right, so lets starts from where we left? and where were we? oh yah, my work place!!

ok.. my work place is gonna have a lunch gathering for the opening of CARE II in NUS CARE for the holding of rabbits, guinea pigs and trishu( if i got that right) its a kinda squirrel so small but agile.. haiyo, its so hard to catch it.. take like a good few hours.. huehue.. niway, my boss asked my dad to cater the lunch.. The staffs were so excited knowing that my dad's cooking.. even during Razali's farewell function and the food was'nt to their liking.. (the food was from other catering coz my dad's hospitalized) and they said it out loud that my dad's cooking is so much nicer. hueheuhue.. and now they keep asking what's in store this time... huehue..kinda funny la.. the anticipation they're going through.. everyone is like coming down.. from NUS AHU, NUS sAHU and NUS Lab Animal Centre. Prof Yap is coming too... so exciting. And now my dad is like so nervous.. everything he does is like so wrong.. kesian ayah.. Hope everything turns out well this thursday!! *sheeshz*

Oh yah.. my fam is so going to kampung this 25th. i wanna follow.. but im working.. how to go? can take leave, but cannot coz im like in charge of the two poly students and they're in the mid of their final year project and im kinda assisting them. so how.. and that new temp staff, she's under me.. how to delegate work to her.. so hard.. she's like so new.. know nuts.. * sheeshz* im so gonna kena tinggal sorang2 lagi.. boring seh.. i want to see that anak mak long nyer hubby tu.. She's married to another woman's husband.. sheeshz.. amik laki org.. i wanna see how great he is.. but it seems like no luck eh.. *bleah*

And and im so broke this month.. mom borrowed near $200 bucks from me. supposedly to return on the 25th of last month.. but till now.. she seemed so quiet.. so hangus ahh... sheeshz.. its ok.. Halalkan ah.. and i spent like $180 bucks on the punjabi dress.. sheeshz.. and another few hundred on the "ang bao".. haiyo... i so broke!!!!!!!!!!!

im so waiting for the christmas sale.. want to buy new perfume.. finished my jennifer lopez already or rather my sista, nana, she finished it.. "you drink it or what ah nana?" sheeshz.. and i want to check out Island Shop. they usually have very nice clothes on offer during christmas sale. And i wanna buy the jacket at Mango. its selling at 30% discount. so cool... but now no money... so how?? dream on aje la... Sheeshz.. :(

i realised that my bday is like just a week after my new found friend's, Farihah @ pinkzhippie. Her bday falls on the 24th of Dec. We're saggitarius.. i think la.. right anot?? hehuehuehue... think im gonna buy you a pressie babe.. you wait ah.. this month money not enough.. heuhue.. shesshz... (so many sheeshz in this entry ah...) sheeshz!

ok la ok la... im going to jalan raya... dad's calling... ciaoz...

huehuehue... nak step konon... huhuehueu..

This week has been a roller coaster ride for me.

Its a one woman show at work today. All the bosses have gone for a seminar. So left the mini-boss and that's me!

*Phew*Didnt know that being a boss can be so difficult. All the time it's Fiza here, Fiza there..

Fiza how ah??
Fiza, like this can or not??
Fiza, what you want me to do now??
Fiza, can i take time off??
Fiza, can i go back at 3pm??
Fiza, the bottle washer machine's spoil..
Fiza, can you check the order list??
Fiza, can you stock check the carcasses??
Fiza, the Zoo Man's here..
Fiza, the birdpark call..
Fiza, small sized gloves finished already.
Fiza, how to see the plug?
Fiza, i need more rats for testing..
Fiza, the mice not enough for supply..
Fiza, cannot wash off the IVC pipe..
Fiza, the isolator's glove got hole already..
Fiza ... Fiza.... Fizaa........

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Stop!!!

For a moment, i lost my orientation. Luckily found myself back and its

Lina, go mend the isolator's glove..
Aru, help the two poly students to wash the pipe..
Sarika, please order some more gloves..
Smile at the Zoo people and tell them to take their time choosing their dead rats/mice.
Call the service man to come on Monday and service bottle washer.
Cancelled those orders that cannot be supplied.
Told the ah-sohs, that if they want to leave early.. i'll still have to record down who "cabut".

In the end, everything went just fine. But of course with blunders here and there..

Blunder No 1
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Poly students: "Fiza, how to see if the rats are mated?"
Fiza: "Very Easy. If the rats are mated, you'll see a plug in the vagina."
Poly students: " Fiza, we're not sure leh. Can help us to see whether there's any plug or not?"
Fiza: "Yah sure.. Come, just tilt the tail to expose the genitals, try to open up the vagina to see if any plug has been inserted in by the male. That will show that they've mated."
Fiza: "See, there's something inside.. You all can see or not?"
Poly students: "Fiza, isnt that the anus you're looking at?"
Fiza: "Errr....?????"

Blunder no 2
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Engineer: "Xcuse me, do you have ladder?"
Fiza: "Leather? I dont think we have any leather here. We dont use it.Wait ah, i'll go and ask my senior. "
Fiza: " Swee huat, do we have any leather here or not??"
Swee Huat: " Of course la, ladder's in the store room."
Fiza: " huhh?? We got leather meh?? we keep in store room??
SH: " yeah la, you ah.. very obvious what?"
Fiza: "and how does the leather looks like?"
SH & Engineer: ???!!!???

Fiza goes into the store room.. looks left, looks right...
An attendant came into the store room..

Fiza:"Cik Jo, do you know where's the leather? SH says its in the store room."
Cik Jo: " There, beside you only what? SO big also cannot see ah??"
Fiza turned and she saw: "huhh??? LADDER?? i thought LEATHER..ceh~!"
Cik Jo: "What for an engineer needs a leather?? To spank you with??"
Fiza: "Errr....????"

7 things that scares me:-

1. Ghost/Supernatural forces
2. Injections
3. Interviews
4. Losing anyone whom i hold on dearly
5. Falling tremendously ill/ Death
6. Creepy Crawlies
7. Failure in life

7 things I like most:-

1. My dad, Mom, siblings
2. Alfian
3. Computers w internet access
4. Smile & Crack Jokes
5. Security & to be loved/wanted
6. Being complimented for things that I've done
7. Holidaying/ travelling w my fam' and beloved

7 most important things in my room:-

1. HP
2. Hamsters
3. Bed/comforter/pillows & bolster
4. HP Charger
5. Novel
6. Fan ( make it the no 1 on the list)
7. Mirror/Dressing table

7 random facts about me:-

1. Im getting fatter and fatter day by day
2. I teach tuitions everyday after work
3. At times, I work 7 days per week
4. I've been in love w Alfian for 6 years, in relationship w him for 5yr ++
5. Emotional, cry easily, soft hearted
6. Forgiving
7. When I was 7 yrs old, Inserted a watermelon seed in my left ear and left it to germinate before going to doctor and suck that damn thing out. huehuehue

7 things I plan to do before I die:

1. Travelling to all the 7 wonders of the World w my loved ones.
2. Be married and have lotsa kids.
3. Be a successful career woman and yet a perfect wife to my hubby.
4. Spending more time with fam'.
5. Khatam Quran once again.
6. Swear i'll not miss sholat subuh
7. Repent ( i guess when you know you're dying, that's the first thing that will come to mind right?)

7 things I can't do:-

1. Of course the basics (smoke, drinks, sleeps ard, eat pork)
2. Watch anything horror, see any gross picture.
3. Continued living my life knowing i've been cheated on.
4. Cant be mad w Alfian for more than a week.
5. Cant sleep without hearing Alfian's voice and not seeing my parents before sleeping.
6. Cant do major operations like how a vet does. ( e smell of blood stinks!!)
7. Cant do a single thing right knowing that any of my loved ones in dander.

7 words I say most:-

1. Adapavviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
2. Ntah la.. malas nak ckp lagi
3. Ok la, ok la, ok la..
4. tahu takpe..
5. sigh!!
6. Can you help me do ........
7. aiyah... today got tuition.

Cinta yang terindah
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Mengingati awal perjumpaan kita dulu
Segar dalam ingatanku, dikala itu
Begitu salah tingkah laku ku dihadapanmu
Seperti kemarin saja kejadian itu berlalu

Mengenangkan kembali perjalanan cinta ini
Tak semuanya mudah untuk dilalui
Kadang terlalu jauh dan mendaki
Adakalanya begitu penuh onak dan duri

Merenungkan kembali semuanya
Adakalanya kau membuatkanku kecewa
Adakalanya membuatkanku berduka
Namun tak pernah ku hiraukan semua itu, demi kasih kita

Mengangankan hari esok bersamamu
Tiada lagi keraguan didalam jiwaku
Walaupun kutahu banyak lagi tempat untuk berteduh
Sesungguhnya engkaulah pelabuhan terakhirku

Akan ku terus menantimu wahai Dewa
Menantimu dengan sejuta kasih dan cinta
Kan kupersembahkan semua cinta yang kupunya
Untukmu kekasih yang selalu setia

Agar tidak lagi aku keseorangan
Agar tidak lagi aku diburu kesepian
Walaupun nanti kau tidak memilihku sebagai teman
Walaupun nanti Penantian ini berakhir dengan kenangan

Fiza is a HAPPY lady today.

The date with my love was so therapeutic. Thanks dear for the lovely chat. I feel so lucky to have known you. Your care, patience, intelligence and jokes never fail to made me feel that im such a lucky girl to have made you mine. Your existence really made me realise that life is such a wondrous thing.

Work went well today. Accomplished so much. *Phew* Im really beginning to feel comfortable with the two poly students. They're a lovely bunch though they can be rather dependable at times. Oh well, i was dependable too when i was their age. I wonder if i behave like them when i was under industrial attachment back then in poly. Sheeshz!! :) But they're cool really. Its nice to mingle with youngsters once in a while. They make you feel energised and chatty and being more confident and laughing out loud in public. God! how i miss those times in poly with THE CLASS. the class that never fails to make the lecturers shake their head. hehuehuehue...

Oh yah! i read two books in 2 weeks. How's that for a change? Yeah, i was so busy with work and tuitions, i have no time to read books. But now, i can take my own sweet time reading novels and starting on my ALAT lecture notes. Life's gonna be slow and easy till end of the year. I hope!! heuheuheue...

**Fiza cried her eyes out**

Sheeshhz!!! What's happening! She came again into my life. Last time, you tried to take my boyfriend and now my job! I hate you woman! why must you keep harassing my life. Arghhh!!

But im so not gonna be affected by you, woman! We shall see! Have loads of things that i can rejoice about. Those are:

1) Break fast with my girls @ delifrance on 13/10/05

• We've had so much fun talking we didnt even realise that we've talked for about 4 hours. Its so fun catching up on each other once again. I felt so happy! hee..Wanted to shop for my Hari Raya shoes and bag. But obviously everything was forgotten once i saw the two of them.
• Wanni looked so petite and thin. God! Girl, you betta put on some weight or im gonna look so large sitting beside you. hee..
• Chunyan told us about her accident. Phew, she's one lucky girl, i tell you. It could have been worse. She torn her toe, went for two surgeries and voila, she's still as beautiful as i've always known her to be.
• I wore a fuschia long skirt and black top, put on a lil' make up and everyone at work was go go ga ga about me looking so fine. Even the two engineers were like looking twice when they saw me. ((I know im sloppy but i can look nice when i doll myself up)) hee..

2) Told my love that apparently his friendster fren came over to apply for a position at CARE.

• Was so down that i saw her once again. God! how am i gonna work with somebody whom i hate so much. There's already one big bad black wolf in the office. I dont need one more in the lab. Sheeeshz!! Work's gonna be tough then. Hope she wont get the position. Sheeshz.. ((Common' Fiza, you've got to be professional in this matter. Ahhhh.. wokey, i'll try but i wont promise anything.. anything at all)) sheeshz..
• My love msg me once he knew about it. He said " Hey, Im yours!" Aint it sweet? Thanks Darling. You really understand me so much.
• Aisah said that she's OK, but a little KO. hee.. She thinks im better. yay!

3) Love came to see me the night.

• He was so worried if im saddened about the matter. Aint it sweeter? hee..
• He listened to all that ive said. He's a darlin'.
• We're meeting each other again.. the following day. And that's today.. so here im goona end my entry and getting ready to see him.. He who loves me still...

And you too dear!!

I was in delightful spirits today...

Ive accomplished so many things.. things which i wanted to get them over and done with..

So happy that i helped a pregnant woman and her twin sons crossed the road. I pushed the pram for her... hee.. Was kinda akward initially but she seemed glad that someone helped i think.. though she was very shocked when i approached her... she thought i was a pick pocket.. hehe..

I mean.. common' its not a time to be shy and feeling akward no more... a pregnant lady is in need. why not help?? hee.. If im pregnant, and am in her position, i would want someone to help me.

Oh yah, talking about pregnancy, yesterday, me and ma sis.. went to surf at this website... its our friend's portfolio. He's a photojournalist for wedding couples...

Here's some of the pics that i personally love. They are so symbolic... See em' fer yourself..

Mas kawin digubah seri

Air mawar segar mewangi

Pelamin tersergah berwarna-warni

Menjadi raja & permaisuri sehari

Raja tampan keris di tepi

Cincin ikatan tersarung di jari

Antara dua insan yg mencintai

So magical.. That's the Flame of Love..

**Fizah lets out a huge PHEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!**

Finally, my nightmares are OVER!!

my tuitions are finally reduced to one... syafiq... but teaching him is pure heaven.. he's a bright child..

JW is back from china. That means less work for me... Or not.. well maybe a little.. gee..

I think i was rather down today and didnt talk much. Wasnt the real me @ work.. Aisah saw through me and asked me into the office.. She said that whatever's not satisfactory to the laboratory principles should be made known to her.. literally meaning if any senior staff try to bully me once again.. she must know immediately.. she told me not to suffer in silence. She thought that i was demoralized and am in low spirits to work recently... she thought it's because of the procrastinating promotion and the increase in bullies @ work... thank god she realised.. well at least i scored some good point on the upcoming staff's appraisal right?? Wrong!! what if she sees that as a weakness of not being able to stand up for what's right?? *sigh*

hee... niway she gave me a pat on the back and said.. she knows what's going through my mind.. and that she understands.. gee.. She knows so much... i hope things turns out better tomorrow and the days that follow.

What does life hold in store for me? Will I reach my dreams? Live happily?

Sometimes I Feel
Sometimes I feel so alone but I know I'm not.
Sometimes I feel like I have no friends when I have so many.
Sometimes I feel like no one cares when I know so many do care.
Sometimes I feel like i'll never have anyone of my own when I know I will.
Sometimes I feel like...

I need you...
I need your strong arms around me.
I need to feel the gentle warmth of your cheek next to mine.
I need the closeness of you, the safety of you.
I feel such peace and contentment and joy with the nearness of you.
Without you, I feel the chill of indifference.
I feel the insecurities of a painful past.
I feel lost, searching for a warm place to lay my tired head.
I feel the weight of the world forcing me on my bended knees.
I feel such hopelessness and defeat.
To be a whole, complete person,
I need your true and honest love,
I need you,

Always.

Im living my life the way i didnt like it... Didnt like it... Didnt like it at all...

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.And that's marriage - with the right person.You're serious about settling down some time soon.Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

HUHHHHH???

Sure anot?? gee...Yeah the thought has came across my mind before but not really seriously planning or what.. still dreaming about it la... my baby's not ready yet.. we still have a long way to g... Dating is fun what??

**Fizah let out a heavy breath..**

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Let's start off with what happened yesterday.

At work, Aisah asked me to help her find a present for Razali's farewell party as a token of appreciation for his service in NUS for many many years long. i thought of a decent watch but aisah didnt really like the idea. she said that Razali wont appreciate it. She said that he's the "selenge" type. i was very upset when she said that. i mean who is she to say people "selenge" or not right? aisah thought of a buying a photo frame and inserting old photos of the him and the staffs at LAC. so i went to causeway point with my mom in search of a nice photo frame.. i saw this really chic "expensive"-looking solid wood photo frame at Precious Thoughts and without thinking further.. i bought it. Then me and mom went to BK and had our dinner. It was fun. The dinner i mean.. it's been long since me and mom spent time together. OK.. so then we went back home and when i wanted to put the photo in the frame.. i realised that ive bought the wrong size.. the frame is for 5R photo but my photo is size 3R. so what i did was to put two 3R photo together. it looked pretty ok i guess. Well, at least it covered my blunder.. Luckily.. *Phew*

Wokey, so today, i woke up late.. and had to take my own transport.. Reached @ 8.30am so had no time for breakfast. Went into office only to be told that another staff "see doctor". Damn it!! That means its my turn to go cover his duty in the wash area to "korek Sai".. whatever!! at 11.30am, off we went to Sembawang, LAC for the farewell party. I saw Razali.. sheeshz.. now i know why aisah said that he's a selenge.. he really is.. i mean its not the selenge- selenge type.. its more of like he's very in his own world. like he's in a daze. he doesnt respond to people around him. its like his eyes's looking into space.. the staffs there said that he was disturbed by spirits..and he would just scream at any time.. at the top of his voice saying that he doesnt want to be disturbed anymore.. good gracious.. i wonder who he's talking to.. Aisah told me that that's the reason why he was retrenched.. poor guy.. he looked very decent.. *sigh*

oh no... im late for tuition again.. will update again if ive time today... bye..

I am so tired..

I am so tired..

I am so tired..

Horrayyy!!! Huwowwwwww!!!!!!! My date yesterday with alfian was sooooo good.. i just couldnt start describing how much we've bonded.. and how much we've enjoyed ourselves so thoroughly.. Yayy!! At long last, i experienced the date i've always been longing for so long. Thanks dear for making me so happy yesterday though i had to wait for you for 2 hours long. BUT it all worth it.. I was so damnnnnn tired afters.. The sleep following it was so peaceful, calm and serene.. You can practically see me smile whilst sleeping.

Therefore today, i woke up feeling refreshed, cant wait to start the day. Oh what sweet dreams i had yesterday.. the hot sun, the soft sand, the sparkling clear blue sea, the corals, the calming blue sky, the shades, the straw hat, and of course my hot man sipping ice water.. huwowwwwwwwwwww....

Anyway, a call @ 6.30am stopped all my fantasy. My boss called and said that one of the staffs called in sick. so two down and now one down.. what else can be so boring on a monday morning. so i went out of my house feeling cheery bubbly and very enthusiastic to start the day. But when i reached Kranji MRT, another 2 of the staffs reported MC again. ok! there goes my mood , my fantasy, my everything. coz why? coz that means that i had to 'pa kau liao'everything. right from the packing, to the washing bay, to the mice room, to the rat room. And if that's not enough, the taiwan visitors had to come today and of course i had to leave my work and entertain them.. luckily there was aisah to help bring them around. Sheeshz...

Errrrrr.... i forgot to check the time.. im running late for my tuition.. sheeshz.....

So here i am at my office on a saturday morning.. *sigh*

My duties are done but i cant go back yet coz i've to wait for the electrician to finish doing his wiring and return me the switch room key. That explained why i have the time to update on my blog.

My weekend gonna be a fast one... lets see.. tomorrow i'll have to come to work *again* and then to tuition *again* and then go out with darling. i hope we'll have a fun time together. i need to de-stress myself. hmm... when was the last time i watch a movie?? errr... nah i cant remember.. months ago maybe.. sheeshz..

Wokey.. here comes Thiru the electrician.

Im off to tuition now.. sheeshz..

- the bus ride's the only thing why i enjoyed going to work.. sheeshz..

Well... what can i say.

This whole week has been very frantic for me. An emotional, really take alot from me.. Im so deadbeat from everything that has happened throughout this week.

Firstly, i didnt get the much awaited promotion. Common' man.. i deserved it. i worked my ass off.. Bosses said it'll have to wait till december. Oh what ever..

Secondly, apart from my work duties.. im now in charge of two temasek poly students on attachment for a period of 3 months. Gosh, if my work load is not suffocating me already, you've to add on to my work load. Sobz. Next week will be hell coz Swee Huat's on leave for a week and JW is still on leave whole lot of next week. Only ME.. ive got no leave.. or better well rephrase it.. i cant take leave. how unfair. Sheeshz..

Im really left with no energy at all to do tuitions. have been cancelling all my tuitions for this week. And tomorrow's the Doa Selamat for my dad at my home.. i'll have to help out. But that will have to be after im off to work then to tuition then come home. There goes my much awaited date with my love. Sheeshzz...